You are not different, you are special.

My Story

Being an Apple fanboy all my life, I have always been interested in the idea of being different.
What do I mean by being different? I want to do things in ways other people don’t usually do.

What do I mean?

I want to behave differently. I want to breathe differently. I guess by doing these; I am telling myself that maybe my constant search for attention gets fulfilled and I become more of an attention seeker to feel better.

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Seeking Attention

Is it better if I always seek attention? Of course not! I mean, it comes at the cost of privacy. Every mistake you make comes as something disastrous; it makes people think you are doing so many things wrong in life.
All that said, I think this comes out as some sickness, some mental illness that needs to be addressed. I don’t know why some people become attention seekers, but I do understand why I want to be one; it is because it makes me feel important.
It is wrong, and I know it, and you know it as well, but sometimes I can’t resist my urges (I hope I could change that though).